It's official

It's official. I have figured out what is wrong with me. I am depressed, despite taking antidepressants for years. My house is a mess, I have unfinished projects all over the place, my car is filthy, the yard is slowly dwindling into a state of shabbiness and I just want to stay in bed or be on the computer, on facebook, playing games. It's my 55th birthday and I feel like my life is close to worthless. My contact lenses bug me, I have back pain and neck pain that won't go away and I can't seem to figure out how to get out of this huge mess. So I retreat into bed or the computer. See, here i am, instead of getting dressed and getting SOMTHING done before the football game, I am on the computer. So, now I am going to take a hot bath and try to pull myself together for a few hours. I keep saying I need some time off from work, but on my days off, I just sleep in and do nothing, so I might as well go to work and make some money. If anyone wants to help a middle-aged, overweight woman try to pull her life back together, email me.