Update

I am hearing that everyone is worried because I am depressed. It's weird, because I don't feel depressed, just act that way. So, maybe I am not depressed, just lazy. I have decided that Facebook games are a tool of the Devil. I waste hours in front of the computer, playing stupid games. There is a social aspect to them, especially games like Farmtown and Farmville. I talk to my friends at work about our farms and cafes. But, today, I am just wasting time. I need to read the flylady postings more and facebook less. Or, I need to practice self-control and just step away from the computer. So...on that note, I am going to take a shower, get dressed to the shoes, eat lunch and make a list of what I need to get done today. LIke practicing Carmen. P.S. I love that I have learned to put cute borders on my blog site.

It's official

It's official. I have figured out what is wrong with me. I am depressed, despite taking antidepressants for years. My house is a mess, I have unfinished projects all over the place, my car is filthy, the yard is slowly dwindling into a state of shabbiness and I just want to stay in bed or be on the computer, on facebook, playing games. It's my 55th birthday and I feel like my life is close to worthless. My contact lenses bug me, I have back pain and neck pain that won't go away and I can't seem to figure out how to get out of this huge mess. So I retreat into bed or the computer. See, here i am, instead of getting dressed and getting SOMTHING done before the football game, I am on the computer. So, now I am going to take a hot bath and try to pull myself together for a few hours. I keep saying I need some time off from work, but on my days off, I just sleep in and do nothing, so I might as well go to work and make some money. If anyone wants to help a middle-aged, overweight woman try to pull her life back together, email me.